1. It’s okay
  2. Really, just breathe
  3. Your hair is a mess. And it looks sexy as fuck.
  4. Do your nails. That new polish you bought last week is waiting.
  5. Message her. Do not let that awkward silence last any longer.
  6. Clean your desk.
  7. Turn off the music at some point. Lie down and relax. Don’t think. Just be.
  8. Look up some recipes and cook something nice tomorrow.
  9. Say thanks more often.
  10. You don’t have to ace everything you do.
  11. Baby steps. Baby steps.
  12. Turn on the ac at max power and wear a hoodie and pull on your sleeves if you miss it. Feel safe.
  13. Your body is fine.
  14. Your body is fine.
  15. We all make mistakes. Forgive.
  16. Studying is important, but what is really important is learning.
  17. To learn, live.
  18. To live, stop holding back. Fuck everything and just give it a try. Do not live with the regret of not trying. That is not living.
  19. It’s okay to believe in love, and have faith, and not lose it even if everything around you is breaking down. Even if it hurts.
  20. Depending on others is okay. Not doing it is okay as well.
20 things I needed to remember today. (via a-ionia)

I find myself angry at the shallow empty behavior of people. I find myself hurt at the selfish and unreasonably cruel actions of the few. I find myself wanting to scream at them, is this who you are? is this how you choose to be? are these actions truly you?

and then I find myself questioning my own decisions. I find myself filled with doubt and insecurities. I find myself, having absorbed so much of the pain of others, unable to find my own release and now I am lashing out, cruel and unrecognizable.

I find that I can no longer laugh.

and then suddenly I realize that I cannot find myself at all.





this a religious experience